When I look back at 2019, it feels unique. It felt like 2 years mashed together, while simultaneously feeling like it went by so fast that parts were blurred.
It was filled with the greatest of highs, and teachable lows.
Baseball made 2019 uber complicated, and if you kept up with our season you might be asking why you saw us go back and forth from the majors to the minors TEN times. It’s because Casey had what they call an “option” left. Meaning he could go up and down from the minors to the majors as they needed him.
It was absolutely exhausting, mentally, physically, emotionally. We lost sleep, paid for flights we never took, spent hours traveling one way just to turn right around and go the other. We traveled to a city that we didn't even get to see in the light of day, rested for 3 hours and flew to another. We drove through the night, and missed a tornado by 3 miles while hauling our RV. I wept uncontrollably in front of strangers, and eventually got on anxiety medicine.
The craziest of all our many travels from this year had to be when we got sent down after only a few days in Philadelphia, with the Dodgers. We chose to go home to Florida to spend our 3 "down" days and "recoup", only to be told while buckled in on the tarmac that we would be flying to LA to meet back with the team ASAP. Being that we couldn't get off the plane, we landed in Florida with just enough time to do laundry and head out the next morning.
Throughout the year, even in our (sometimes) zombie like state,
we dug deep and clung to each other while constantly reminding ourselves that wherever we are we can live with purpose. Purpose beyond baseball. Purpose like raising a brilliant little girl who adapts to all of the madness and is daddy’s biggest fan.
There were many days, I couldn't make plans because I had no idea what was happening in my life. Overall though I'm so appreciative for 2019, I may not want to do it all over again, but I'm thankful for what we gained. It felt similar to the relationship we have with the Lord. We may not know what he is doing in our life but we can rest assured knowing who we are doing this life with, and that’s enough for me.
In 2020 we are officially out of options, and can't wait to see how the Lord writes out our year.